Sky Rocketing

song:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RbctNBlXBJc&index=3& list=RDGMEMQ1dJ7wXfLlqCjwV0xfSNbAVMDNeoSNxCV1M  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USx4WyrkfU4 book: murakami, i don't like how some of his stories go nowhere. the main character in this book is a bit too lucky. also, he isn't interesting enough for girls to be throwing themselves at him. it makes it unbelievable and a bit cliché. nietzsche. i'm surprised my analysis is correct to some degree. i read it by myself, make notes and then check on sparknotes to see if i understood it to some degree. section 13 of essay i is nearly impossible. i still don't really get his point. still, i'm surprised i understand the majority. satisfaction. food: eggs, strawberry tea flower: sunflower  sing loudly be in the moment as a part of the metaphysical theater dance along scream and move to the beat of the earths breathing

song:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4he2h5o3WQs food: oreos, mint tea, strawberries and honey, sizzling eggs, a golden colored orange animal: snow fox currently reading: a break from murakami, started with nietzsche on the genealogy of morality insight: did you know morality has nothing to do with evolution? it has to do with power those in power determine what's good the noble ones the rich ones they classify the world at least, that's what nietzsche told me so many fascinating movements my favorite one? the decadents living in the moment the creative soul of the human expressed defined breathing and beating and what do i hate? destroyers of art destroyers of makers destroyers of lovers i despise lovers of futures they're killing lovers of the eternal now anyone with ideals should understand origami fold inwards and outwards see where it came from and how it was formed is it still beautiful? are you lost in the mass? don't get lo

song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=31BOJUIMc00 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1oad-EQyp6M animal: bird food: mashed potatoes, meatballs, raspberry tea and rose pedals, cream cake images: horror stories, high castles, chocolate milk, and fluffy clouds, winter's end, hopeful melancholy, blue flowers, a lonely singing bird, a spider's frozen web i saw a film about churchill even in war scenario's it's pleasant to see victory lose the nuance there's good and bad and the hero conquers the doubtful mass such a shame but who's to blame? what sells, sells people want the fear to be followed by sublimation it's all fine in the end a hopeful future is waiting in the horizon but consider this: what if there's no hopeful end? what if the battle is not between good and evil but beyond that in the gray mass of banality consider this:  why is there art? to please? no, to confuse nuance, nuance, nuance all those secret shades of red

song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vrD3t4KGSuY mood: the song animal: mouse, hide me away, let's go to sleep food: soup, comfort food  letting go is letting go of everything the good and the bad the bad are relative to my happy moments the good when i'm alone as tolstoy said happiness is an allegory misery a story we never really touch each other only through art those who can those who understand those who can express their love of life they walk either too lightly floating centimeters above the ground or they hunch their way through life carrying the world like atlas and me? i'm folding myself inwards a nice origami swan and i'm sipping my soup 

  current songs: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CbwYZCga50U https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PRXtbLqIx04 book: some progress with murakami, he is the warm coffee to a rainy day. animal: squirrel, nibbling away. an echo in one of the chambers of my subconsciousness is telling me to worry, but ignorance is bliss. thoughts: why can't a vacuum be my pet? my father bought a vacuum. he's skinny, boney, so deprived of food. when he's charging he's leaning against the wall, tired from a long day work. silly electronics making me experience empathy for a soulless object... this would be a fun short story. some guy is so lonely, that he adopts a vacuum as a pet. dear vacuum i'm sorry we are exploiting you it doesn't matter that i'm writing this  you probably don't understand human words anyway but this isn't a letter to you it's a letter to my ability to feel empathy for anything remotely human looking ah, how wonderful to be so kind he

Om is pulsating through the roots of the earth look at the snowy landscape through a tiny window letting go is never too late kiss like you're seventeen and french smother yourself in a sunday blanket being scared is part of evolving look back and drop your moonbeams ever so sweetly into bliss  currently reading: the wind-up bird chronicle by haruki murakami listening:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=stqyCF3q1LE last read: siddhartha by hermann hesse overall vibes: scared of letting go, lost, deep down i know it'll be fine, love conquers loneliness, there's contemplation in loneliness regardless animal: cat