food: smoked fish, round bread, orange juice, hummus
music: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qZP54bClDRw&t=0s&list=PL-TuoDfYiByXZsCWCj2uWjvCOcTxpPmOo&index=181
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yPTcKSVAEvA&list=PL-TuoDfYiByXZsCWCj2uWjvCOcTxpPmOo&index=141
animal: panda 
book: finished 'la casa de bernarda alba'. amazing theater piece, loved it to bits
next up: la cantatrice chauve by ionesco

what if we're just trying to make a point
to our past and future selves?
like ego driven maniacs,
subconsciously justifying ourselves to ourselves
to our past selfs and future selfs
to our past parents and present friends
and in the end
we live to justify but only justify to live
through catharisis
but don't know what the real reason to live
truly is

and if i know this
what will i do next?
facts are simply facts
unless i know what to do with whats given
even if,
that means giving up on the usual
and diving in a life thats new
still, new isnt always inviting
might even be right out terrible at first glance
and maybe the second too
true, that might all come out soon
but the alternative?
live stuck in the past, trying to justify tomorrow?
constantly punishing yourself
drowning in sorrow?
being a hollow shell
because you dont know go on?

well, dont need to tell me that twice
i think it would be nicer
if i just realized,
that most of our fears and dreams
are our past shadows trying to catch up
and the only way to battle that
is to shine a light on your fears
and let them go
and see the present as a present
a gift to uplift you
that today's better than yesterday
isn't that a wonderful way
to start a new day? 
so,
i guess this will do for now,
the rest i'll see
just enjoy life and let it be