food: smoked fish, round bread, orange juice, hummus music: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qZP54bClDRw&t=0s&list=PL-TuoDfYiByXZsCWCj2uWjvCOcTxpPmOo&index=181 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yPTcKSVAEvA&list=PL-TuoDfYiByXZsCWCj2uWjvCOcTxpPmOo&index=141 animal: panda book: finished 'la casa de bernarda alba'. amazing theater piece, loved it to bits next up: la cantatrice chauve by ionesco what if we're just trying to make a point to our past and future selves? like ego driven maniacs, subconsciously justifying ourselves to ourselves to our past selfs and future selfs to our past parents and present friends and in the end we live to justify but only justify to live through catharisis but don't know what the real reason to live truly is and if i know this what will i do next? facts are simply facts unless i know what to do with whats given even if, that means giving up on the usual and diving in a life thats new still, new isn